Dear Darla of the past,
I’m writing this to you in the hopes you can circumvent some
of the train wrecks you have on the horizon if you keep on the path you are on.
First of all, I want you to know that Jesus is the hole in
your heart and to search Him out and believe His promises and the Word of God
and not the words of others around you.
The Devil will try to destroy you and your mind with lies about yourself
and others, don’t believe him, believe in the truth of the Bible. Study it every day and pray for revelation
and truth to be revealed.
Your brother, your sisters, your mom and dad and peers have
lied to you. You are beautiful, you are
worth something, Jesus accepts you as you are.
You do belong to His kingdom, stop trying to belong to the world, you
don’t belong to the world.
Life will be tough, but you will get through it and you will
learn and be stronger because of your trials.
Find your gifts and serve others with your gifts. You cannot be selfish and happy at the same
time. You don’t have to do it alone, you
have the Holy Spirit. Find a community
of believers who will remind you and encourage you every day.
You can stop trying to fit into your families culture. Your
family culture is not God’s culture.
Your self esteem is not equal to their opinion and your performance (and
success) but rather the truth of what God says about you and He says you are
the “righteousness of God”. Believe me
that you are. I know you are ashamed of
your behavior/decisions you’ve made and in your heart you desperately want to
make the right decisions, but you’re are divided between what your heart says
and what your environment is telling you.
You are beautiful the way you are. Accept yourself and stop trying to please
everyone around you in the hopes of feeling unconditional acceptance. Only God can love you the way you long for,
so search him and build the relationship with him so you will feel that
connection.
You have compassion and a heart to serve, so go serve. Use your creativity and discernment and find
a way to serve, you will find joy there.
Lastly, remember that YOU DESERVE TO BE HAPPY and to balance
putting yourself last to everyone else’s needs.
Your needs matter. YOU
MATTER. YOU MATTER TO GOD. Take care of your body, LOVE YOURSELF. TAKE CARE to what you read, the people you
invest in and the environment you place yourself in.
Remember….the best is yet to come and you CAN HOPE FOR
HAPPINESS.
I love you,
Darla (senior)
